Are we our worst enemies?
Life. While i’m wandering on my room, lost in my own thoughts, i realise how some of them are bad. Yes, i’m having bad thoughts.
At this moment you’re probably thinking that i was having bad thoughts on my stupid neighbor, or on my boring friend. But i was not. My bad thoughts were in the first person. About me.
Maybe if they were about any other person i would have stopped, because we all know how karma is a bitch. There is karma for hurting ourselves, anyway?
The thing is, it’s pretty impressive how bad we can get about ourselves. We judge ourselves for the things we’ve done and for those we haven’t too. For what we have said and for what we’ve left unsaid. For all those times we’ve tried so hard and failed. At the end of the day, there’s always a part of us accusing us. For all that went wrong.
In this selfish world we’re living in, all i want is to find my shelter right inside me.
Anyway, it’s curious how benevolent we can be with others and how stupidly hard we can get with ourselves. Maybe it’s due to this “looser” word we’re all so afraid of. In a more and more perfectionist society, looser is all we don’t want to be connected to.
But, the truth is we all fail. We’ll all fail. Not just one time. A lot of times. But we’ll make things right too. We’ll hit the success and achieve at least some of our goals.
There will be times when no matter how hard we push ourselves we won’t be enough. And that’s okay. Because in a lot of other times we’ll be more than enough.
Life as the economic system is made of successes and failures. And it’s important to remember this. That’s why we need to find in ourselves our best friend. Not an enemy.
So, today i’m closing the door to the negative thoughts. I’m picking up my favorite yellow pair of trousers, the shoes that i still love after 5 years and just let it be.
After all, in this selfish world we’re living in all i want is to find my shelter, right inside me.